I am surprised to be where I am today.
Last night I engineered mrsinky and Foal to go out so that i could be alone. I have been catastrophically, almost catatonically depressed and only functioning on a very basic level. So I was expecting a downturn and then...well I have my hospital bag packed. Or I have my pills. Either way I expected to be somewhere else.
When it cae down to it I didnt swing down that hard. it was rough but not that rough.
Today, of course, is different.
Today I can feel the black lurking in the wings. I am feeling week, and tearful. I dont want to go outside. I dont want to leave the room.
RantingScienceZebra The rantings of a bitter, twisted, sometimes crippled and rather mad scientist
The pills are an evil temptation. Please hand them over to someone else for safe-keeping.
ReplyDeletePfft! Stay in for a bit then, nowt wrong with staying in your room for a few days. Hold hands with unreal friends on the internet, correct pillocks on line, whatever you need. Give the good drugs to a responsible grown-up though.
ReplyDelete*Waves hand in the air* 'Me me. I volunteer to be the online pillock. It comes naturally.'
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